One more update on the Unity Jaina package. Did some various tests to toggle cameras and effects, added a camera for the ladies, and may never be able to look Mekkatorque in the eyes ever again. Check out the updates in the last post below. I removed the cum button till I make a better working setup. If it still loads the last version make sure to force refresh or just download the executable.
So yesterday, as you all know, I was having a bit of a problem. Have been feeling really bad off and on for the last few weeks, a few points felt almost like I was dying, and it turns out I am suffering from three things. Allergies is one, it’s hitting me hard, applying pressure to my head in my sinus cavities. A light infection is another, though I am set on antibiotics to ward that off. The third thing is a bit more complicated though, and I really don’t know what to do.
Turns out, I am not really physically sick. The main issue that was hurting me yesterday was a bit more mental: Extreme Anxiety. Life has been a whirlwind right now, my wife pregnant with our second child and fighting through morning sickness that leaves her incapacitated, my day job undergoing a huge change that will hurt my ability to pump out this content here by a possible massive degree, a big trip I tried to plan to visit family that may never happen, and all my deadlines I was setting myself up for content here (webcomic, commissions, the old random I have yet to do, the still in limbo Hellfire 2, Patreon, etc). It all compounded, stacking like a ridiculous debuff till my muscles grew so tense throughout this month that my neck muscles were actually cutting off blood flow to my brain, and my arms and legs were going numb from the strain.
The doctor has me on muscle relaxers to try to loosen it up enough that I can get back to normal function, but until I figure out some way of lessening the causes of the anxiety it’s just going to keep flaring up till it kills me. I don’t know what I am going to be able to do about that, as I may have to cut down on one of the three spheres that cause the problem (work, family, art), cutting family is out of the question, and the only one I want to cut down or out (work) is required just to live a decent life, while the one I want desperately to keep under any circumstance (art) is the most expendable.
Though enough of this bullshit for now, I got something to post for you guys later today. I hope you guys like it.
Okay, this week has been pretty shitty. Maybe part of it is coming off my vacation, but before I even left I started feeling a bit under the weather. During the trip it got better but now it’s hitting me twice as hard by the end of this week, so much so that I am heading to the doctor this afternoon. to find out what is wrong with me.
Worst yet I still have not finished the comic panels I wanted, and the ones I have finished feel rushed and half-assed because all my energy has been going into real work (which has been shitty), that Jaina animation (I tried to do a quick unity convert that didn’t turn out so quick), and trying not to throw up. I tried to fix them up today and it has just made me more angry and frustrated because every distraction makes the deadline loom closer.
I don’t want to release this half-assed comic strip, so I am just going to take my time and have a big release next week again (with three animations that I planned telling a bit of the story of the other crews adventures). You guys will just have to enjoy the cliffhanger for a bit longer, before we head into the climax vote where you will get to pick how Robyn celebrates her victory. Sorry, but I can’t take this stress with all this nausea.
I want to still try to get the energy to do a quick Fel Friday, but even that I am not sure I will make happen today. Here is crossing my fingers getting some food in me improves my mood.